For as long as I can remember I have pissed people off. They
always seem to like me at first. I tend to make a good first impression. But,
over time things change. I've thought about it and I know the reason. It is
because of me. I have two critical personality flaws. I over estimate potential
and I have no regard for things I can't respect.
I am a horse's ass. Other people have called me much worse.
I have high expectations and I think about things to the point of becoming
obsessive. This often leads me to dissecting the people and events around me. I
see people for their potential. I often
over estimate this potential and then become amazed that the people whom I
respected, are in fact stupid. Once I turn the corner on this discovery, there
is almost never a turning back. Here is an example. It might not be a good
example but it will work to make my point: If you have a runny nose, you want a
tissue. You look for a tissue and you are thrilled when you find it. You blow
your nose. And, then the tissue is worthless. You discard it without a second
thought. It is of no value to you. What was once thrilling to find has become worthless.
This is my experience with most people and events in my life.
There are a few occasions where I am surprised. BMW and
Apple products have never disappointed me. The Dry Cleaner we use on Kraemer
has exceeded my expectation repeatedly. My wife, Pam, is much smarter and better
at "managing" me than I ever expected. My parents and my childhood were
nearly perfect, as far as I am concerned. Most of my children have turned out
well and I am proud of them. But.... there are so many other things that have
been a disappointment. I won't list them. It would take a while.
Sometimes, like today at the Day Care Center, I try hard not
to be the pain in the ass person that nobody likes. The lady told me to wear
paper booties over my shoes, "to keep the germs out of the play room."
Really? Are you that stupid? Paper Booties stop germs? Brother, it is hard to
go through a day without telling people how stupid they really are. I am trying
to keep this all inside. If it leaks out once in a while, I am sorry.
